I have a commitment
At forty, you begin to realize that life is in fact too short.
You have so many things in life that you wish to do, but so far you have not done anything to make them happen.
You can’t afford to waste time anymore. From now on, you need to devote time for what really matters, and not for the non-sense.
I would rather devote the rest of my life doing what I love rather than what I hate. I would rather do what I really want to do rather than what other people expect me to do.
I want to devote my life doing creative work, because that is what I love. I don’t want to devote the rest of my life for money. I have spend too much time in the past going after it and less time going after happiness. I don’t want to keep being like that for the rest of my life. We don’t really need to be a billionaire before we can be a happy person. Life is too short. We should rather directly go after happiness.
I want to devote time for people who sincerely love me. I want to stop chasing for success only to gain approval from the public or people in general, because those people do not love me; I don’t even know most of them.
I also want to stop participate in any politic or social movements just because of an urge to change other people’s minds. Everyone seems to want to change the world, but nobody wants to change himself. If I can live forever, I can afford to change the world first and live happily later. Unfortunately, I can wait until other people change, because our life is just too short. The funny thing is that I don’t know those people. Many of them even hate me because of my views. They might also want to change me as much as I want to change them, too. Why bother devoting your life for people who hate you? Devote your time for the loved ones.
I am now ready to sacrifice everything going after what I love. I no longer expect everyone to agree with me. I no longer expect everyone to love me. I no longer expect everyone to think of me as a nice guy. I don’t have a lot of time left. So I have to sacrifice to achieve the life that I want it to be.